Monday, April 4, 2011

(Father/Husband) I'm a mess

This morning I woke up with a cherry menthol cough drop stuck to the back of my head.  Needless to say I've been off my game lately.  It is my belief that humans are inherently habitual creatures.  We are looking for a comfortable balance and when that balance is threatened we try very hard to find it again.  When someone suffers the loss of something, any loss really, a hole is left and have to fill it with something. 

We are in the middle of a necessary loss with our 12.5 years of renting and into our first new home.  Exit any healthy habits of eating and exercising and enter in fast food burgers, chocolate, and pop.  Exit any sense of creative energy and enter in an a single minded focus on moving heavy objects.  That and screwing.  Y'know, like light bulbs.  Gone is any good hygiene for our children.  Gone is any good attention toward our children at all.  Right now Beast is repeatedly throwing a blanket on the keyboard in order to garner any kind of attention.  Any at all.  I gave him attention all right.  In the form of biting his head.  I don't know what I'm talking about.  All I want is time to do something life giving.  Taking out a rusty sink is not one of those things. 

Yes I know, home ownership involves work.  I will walk into the office and hear Bill talk about how his relaxing weekend was spent at the beach.  I will brag that my relaxing weekend was spent taking moss off my roof.  Oh yeah, and then I was lucky enough to have time to clean the gutters.  But bits and pieces my friend.  Bits of work and pieces of blog writing.  Yes, blog writing is relaxing for me.  Basketball wasn't so I quit.  I'm equally awesome at both but something had to give.  I know what your your thinking, "I would certainly hate to see you play basketball."  Fine.  I'll stop for now.  But only because Beast is putting a laundry bag over my head.  But I'll be back.  Oh yes.  I'll be back. 

3 comments:

  1. Ah ... the joys of home ownership. It never ends. It does get better ... but it never ends. After you have renovated yourselves into exhaustion, things will settle down. You'll grow accustomed to the things you said you were going to get change right away (like that disgusting paint color in the upstairs hallway) and learn to love that light fixture you said would be first to go.

    Eventually, you'll set some priorities, find time to enjoy life again, and make To-Do lists for the future! Happy Homemaking!

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  2. Thank you for relieving my worry. My God bless your soul. Unless you are an atheiest. Then may karama come back to you a hundred fold.

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  3. Goose, I love this blog. You should join twitter in all of your free time and post links each time you blog. That would help me remember blogger exists.

    Hope all is well, my friend.

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